This pain is excruciating
Pushing me, got me debating it all.
If I let go how much further will I fall into those blue, green, grey eyes ?
The colours that used to brighten my nights
One look and I had clear sight.
Something turned, something changed
And everywhere I look I see only your name
Every thing I hear reminds me of your voice
Believe it or not I put you first in my every choice.
And we shift
The veil lifts to reveal something new
All the things you don’t understand about me, the things I don’t know about you.
And we shift
I miss being in your arms
When everything was assured to be okay
Last time we were together I didn’t really know what to say.
We shift, are we drifting beyond the others reach?
Are these just lessons the universe has to teach
Or is it an end?
I always said I would never be your friend.
The burning was always love,
A pain is returning again
That ache, ache, ache
With this rift between us.
The evidence of a lack of trust.
Yet is this trust in ourselves
Or each other ?
The connection when we touched
Each other as lovers feels different.
Or is it I who feels different?
With this shift, are we to lose what we have ?
When the trust isn’t present
Everything else becomes irrelevant
Is this a journey to take together
Or one to walk alone?
It’s not the company I need
I’m used to being on my own.
But I want you
I miss you
I miss your touch on my skin
I miss not knowing where my being ends and yours begins.
Not to lose our identities
Or independence, or take away from the journeys we must walk alone
But lose ourselves in each other
When we just need to be home.